Dieting is dumb

Alright, so i have some body issues, and someone needs to tell me to shut the fuck up. I went to New Hampshire last weekend and stuffed myself with donuts and fries and onion rings and things i dont normally eat anymore. And so then i decided to step on my friends scale that was in his bathroom. I havent stepped on a scale in like a year or more, and anyone who knows me knows that i have a certain kind of vanity. I will freak out and obsess over perceived imperfections like someone shot my nose off or something. So i stepped on the scale and it said 150 and i had a minor heart attack. Dude, i was 140 for like 5 years and i ate whatever i wanted and i didn't exercise at all, and i still maintained the same slim figure. The thing that sucked even more was that over the past 2 months i had thought i gained weight but everyone said i was being retarded, which i figured was accurate. I mean, ive been sitting at a desk for the past year for work, and i mean i figured i was gunna have secretary ass(which actually its not as bad as i thought it would be.) SO i started freaking out and im like i have to go on a diet.........im an asshole. Well usually when i set my mind to things like working out or eating better or doing laundry, they last for like 2 days. But since Monday i have only had a small bowl of fruit in the morning, a light salmon salad or sandwhich at lunch, and a healthy ish salad at night. No regular soda, barely any carbs, a very minimal amount of cheese in my salad, no snacks etc. I did it for 5 days and honestly i noticed some loss. It was nice for me to do something rare, sticking to something, and seeing the results. And i felt better to about eating healthier. I dont usually read about international politics of affairs on a regular basis, but during the week i read something about a famine in Kenya. And it made me feel like a prick for obssesing over something so ridiculous. I dont have a bad body, i have food on the table, and maybe i should let myself be now and then and think of others a little more. Narcissim is a quality i like ot think i dont posess, but everyonce in a while i think it rears its ugly head in everyone.